April 4, 2021

Journal: Sunday April 4th 2021

I woke up at 2:00 a.m. this morning as per usual.

I figured out how to upload my meditation podcast on Spotify.

So now it will just be a daily challenge to crank it out each and every day.

It's a challenge that I'm really looking forward to.

My up and coming project is to do a business interview on YouTube like Joe Rogan. So then I eagerly called a few of my friends with this idea. Prolific will be the word of the day. My goal will be to crank out 50 interviews per year which would be one per week.

I told John Mac Namus, city treasurer and reluctant person that acknowledges my existence, that I didn't want to be lonely, and I will definitely not be lonely trying to get speakers together for my project. It's more than that of course. I don't want the world to be lonely. I just want people to feel connected like they have a friend. Yuval Harare said that loneliness is going to be the worst epidemic that humankind will face. So I'm going to figure out how not to be lonely. Not that I get lonely. Being of the stoic mentality really helps to be not lonely. Like you are so embroiled in your own mind and thoughts. There's often little room for anything else. I suppose I could be lonely or maybe should be lonely but I was an only child so I am very used to being alone and enjoying that.

So I'm really psyched about those two projects. Podcasting and youtubing. But the excitement wore down as the day wore on. 

I suppose right now Jason is deciding my level of relevance in his life. It's really fun for me to have absolute full control over that. Oh wait a minute I mean it's really not fun that I have absolutely no control over that. Like I always tell Jason the universe has my back. I want him to make a choice that's right for him. Because then it will be his consequence that he will have to contend with.  

So it's actually Easter today.

Happy Easter to me!

I kind of didn't accomplish any housework or exercise.

And I didn't get to talk to Mike. Boohoo for me! In our conversations we just go deep about meditation. He has a master's degree in special education and 17 years of making intolerable children plyable.  

I prattle on texting him about the most mundane stuff that I'm utterly fascinated by but to the world I'm sure the world could truly care less. So I guess I'm so utterly grateful to have an audience of even just one to listen to me bemoan my outlook of my circumstances.

I talked to Clayton and Brian about being a guest on my YouTube channel. They were hesitantly enthusiastic about it.  

Maroof visited and I discussed Buddhist meditation and my new podcast thing. He discussed helping those in need in Africa. He has such a beautiful heart. I truly absolutely adore him.

Michael stopped by and we will be flipping cars for the next six months and see if that improves our financial situation. My front bumper was torn off and he said that in all it would cost $50.

So here I am. It's been a whirlwind of a day. Happy Easter 2021 with no egg hiding!